I have a lot going on!
I've been interviewing... a lot... I had an interview yesterday, one today, and have one tomorrow. These are RN positions I'm interviewing for. These interviews have been very long and involved, and I am exhausted.
Some one asked me about the questions... I'm probably not going to be putting more of them up, and will take the rest down soon. Why? Because I'm going to sell them. Yep, just hate me now and get over it, lol. I realized that my questions are valuable, and being the broke chick that I am, I decided to try to make a few dollars. If I were still studying for the boards, I would have paid $5 for my questions :o) BUT if you have been reading my blog for a while and have been doing the questions, email me at
minoritymidwife @ gmail . com
and I will send you the rest of the questions so that you don't have to pay, deal?
I've been thinking a lot about what might happen if I don't work as a midwife right away... I am worried that if I don't go into it immediately, I might never find my way back to it again because I'm already a little on the fence about practicing as a midwife anyway. Everything about this experience has been hard. I remember when I first said, in midwifery school, that I don't think I can do this... that I was having a hard time seeing myself as a midwife, questioning whether clinical practice was really something I wanted to do. I said that I needed to go somewhere where I could see black midwives in action, feel connected, remember what it is that brought me to midwifery. Integration was probably the best part of my midwifery school experience and I wish I could have kept the momentum from that. It didn't hurt that my friend was there with me and we had a great time :o) But that was 5 months ago.
Two of the midwifery practices I have talked to have said, in one way or another, that their practice isn't very conducive to those who want to have kids right away. It made me sad, but I have to think about it, can't go around it. They say they need new midwives to replace the midwives that will all be retirement age soon, if not already... well if you want young midwives, you have to deal with the fact that yes, they're fertile! And if you want new midwives, you can't keep requiring "experience" for all of your positions!
Anyway, I've been applying for non-hospital RN jobs. I actually really like the RN jobs I've been interviewing for. They're research jobs or jobs in fertility centers or other more administrative type positions. I'm impressed by the work I could be doing, and sad about how
undisappointed I am that I just might not be working as a midwife anytime soon... please share your thoughts, I'm still pondering it all...